today consider sad day..
yes, it is!
today my daddy back to work
everyone is feeling sad, although we areuse to it
tis kind of situation will appear few times a year
but a question that i always ask myself
why my dad have to leave us here and work far a way from home
i will never get a satisfy answer,
jus because, he is working to earn more for us
i remember when i was 11,
the first time my parents told me we have to move to KL for better live
at the moment, i was like ok whatever parents say we have to follow
cant say :'i don't want
at that time i din't know wat will happen if i move to KL .well, what i think is
nothing will change,all will be settle down
but its actually not
alots of family problem come forward to me
the 'family' problem is not my family
but is 'big family' including my aunt n grandma...
it realy make me feel sad
and i realise there are so many things hiding behide me before i came to KL
my mom is the most stress person in the situation,
she have to handle all the things happen on her own
my dad can't help her
and even don't know what is actually happening here
she is really great!
can hold it until now..
i always feel that my dad feel sorry to us
because can't stay beside us every minute.
this is my life
we have to take the opportunity,
to have a better life n secrify somtg
but, our life now is really wonderful ? are we feeling comfortable?
instead of saying erning more money overseas,
the 'big family' problem will never end
i know that it will be contimue carry forward in the future
may be one day may have a ''family war''?
i hope so!
i hope every thing can settle face to face instead of shooting us behide!
really can't understand why would it happen ?
are we really did something wrong?
well, i already use to it.
whatever happen in next minute i have to receive it
last time when daddy going to work
every time i will cry like mad and sad for a few days
i even hate to enter airport
i don like the feeling that people are leaving
we jus can standing there and waving hand
but this few years, i had already no tears to drop when daddy back to work
coz, he have to do so..
although my brother,sisters are cry there
today, as usual, we are waving hand,
my brother and sisters never cry
but after we came home ,
i feel that my mom was in a bad mood
i know why she feel like tat
even me also
once i know daddy back from oversea,i will have a weird thinking
like ,everythings will settle by him,
im pushing all my stress away due to daddy com bac
but after that,
we have to handle it alone again n again
my mom might have such feeling also
i cant imegine how she stand like tis for 8years
at night, i was cooking
coz my mom not feeling well.
we try to make the environment ok..
after that my dad call bac,(everyday he will call us )
he is eating alone there
jus now, when my youngest sister was doing her revision
she suddenly cry
she say she miss daddy so much
yea,my youngest sis is pity
she is the one who have lesser time to be with my dad after she was bone
this is all happening today .
add on: i sleep from 1pm-6pm jus now!!!gosh !! if let my dad know i sure get scold >.<
coz yesterday i sleep late
n tis morning wake up early to KLIA..
555 forgive me...
=====the end of my story=====