correct or wrong

today im thinking of,
the decision i had made is correct or wrong.

it sounds like i shouldn't think too much
and shouldn't expect too much

it seems like before this i already expecting something
and now making me feel bad when things gone out of my own track

when i reading backwards about the march posting here
i found that i never change my attitude since then

i need to learn  to be calm
3 years, it keeps going on like that
i never  calm down as i need to!
things just come forward to me
but how come im not learning to accept the fact instead of worrying?

again, i want to follow the flow,
if you as me do so...
just a little ....sad hahahahaa

my ....

now its the time,
but i don't know right or wrong
i don't know what will happen next
i have no idea

now i don't even dare to dream anymore..
when you start thinking, means you are expecting
when you are expecting meaning something will not goes as you wish to
i alread yexperience so many times
timing not coming yet,
everything is not right yet
even if u are in the same building
if the god do not let you see each other
then it will not gonna happen
well...
i don't want to spoil anything
i just want to do what i did as usual
do not purposely...
i know i will tear drops no matter what
just let it be ..

i will be waiting that day to comes towards me
waiting for so many years
still waiting...

just follow the flow then the flow is here...
flowing to where i should be...
fighting me!!!!

我很痛苦

很痛苦


很痛苦
我很痛苦
自我挣扎
就让我在这里发泄一下
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊




究竟是对或错？
告诉我
究竟你要我走的路是怎样的路
究竟我的选择是多的吗？
究竟我前面会遇上什么
究竟。。
会怎样
忐忑不安的心情
受不了了！！！！