well, our big family have alots of problems, it is complecated, and i do not know how to express it by words. I din't stay with my grandma for a few years, but i stay with her for long long time when i was young. These few years she was moving to life with my aunty near midvalley. The problem raise since long long time ago, even when we are staying together last time, but may be i was still young so i din't realize what is happeing around the adult's world.
In my memory, during the SARS period, my dad came back from China, of course he have to come back every time when we are having school holiday in Malaysia, I remember that day when we came home from KLIA, my dad first step in my house, and greet my grandma, after my dad turn around to bath, she was rushing inside the kitchen, you know what she did? she eat garlic, ( during SARS period, people are saying garlic might save you from SARS) a mother do this to his son, how my dad feel? alright, this is just one of the cases.
the second thing is, when my mom born my youngest sister, my dad was in China, and after daddy know my mom was in the hospital, he want to come back. you know what grandma said? she said no, you don't need to come back, because the airticket is expensive and the factory can't stay like that without a person looking for it, ( last time my dad was working in my aunty factory as "manager" ) before my dad when to China to help my aunt, thye promise us alot of things, when you working oversea for sure the salary is a lot, and there are a lot of benifit isn't it. my dad dicided to go overseas because he wanted to give us a better life.. But what i realize after my dad went there, everything is different! totally different! so call promises are just blank promises. Last time, I am just a kid, and im not use to internet yet. I have no computers to use, even there are, i am not dare to touch it, because we life with my grandma and aunt. those situation is bad, totally bad! my mom wish to keep in touch with my dad, of course they have to ! but we can't call my dad, my aunt was warn my dad, do not simply use the phone, bill is expensive. so, my mom wrote letter to my dad. sounds pity rite! yes it is, now i think back the situation, i feel bad enough!i am asking myself again and again, why daddy want to leave us here, i better went back to perak, i prefer the life we stay together rather than stay in KL like this. i doesn't remember how my family overcome this kind of situation.
another case, when my grandpa still alive, and he is sick heavily in ICU, doctor already tell us, is the time.. my dad want to come back to look at him, but my aunt said no need, i want to go back, so you stay here look after the factory, my grandma din't say anything on her daughter. so end up, my dad unable to see my granpa for the last time.
my mom was stress out when we still love with my aunt and grandma, she wrote dairy, and i get a chance to see the dairy, with full with my tears. sorry mom, i read it! and i know everything. my mom is a tough woman in my eyes, but every person have their own weak side which never show out to the others, especially my mom, if she did show us, i can't imagine how my brother and sister feel. she get alot of things from my grandma when staying together. is really a lot, i thought this will just happen when we watching Hong Kong drama, but it is really happen in real life.
seriously, if now you ask me to think what had happen before, i was almost forget, there was a button in my mind, it will delete all the unhappy things happen in mylife. I had argue with my grandma once. It is totally make me angry. Well, what i said here may be others will think that it was my parent's or mine fault, but i just can't take this anymore. year 2007, new year, during 2006 year end i was in Taiwan, so im not able to go China, so, we went there again during 2007 Chinese New Year. that day was new year eve, i was sticking those red papers in my dad office, and my dad's handphone rang. my grandma called.
she ask my dad, granny: why you treat me like this!
dad: what? what are you talking about?
granny: why are you not allowed me to go into my house!
dad: what ??? ( my dad was blur, and don't know what happen)
granny: i am now infront of the house but the lock was change! why you all change it ! and do not give me the key!" ( that year she already move out, and once again, i din't change the lock, the lock which change i already told her where she can get the key!) my dad pass the phone for me,
granny: why you don't let me in! ( again, i can't get it!)
me: huh! what are you talking about? the gate's key i already told you i put at where! and why are you saying you coundn't get in!
granny: im now inside the gate but i cant get into the house , ( there is a door before enter my house)
me': why not?( i was controlling myself from burning!)
granny: you ask your mom why don't let me in!
what the hell!!!! my mom don't let you in!!!!???? i am the one who close the door before i left!
me: hey! what do you mean by my mom do't let you in! I am the one who lock the door! what to do with my mom!!!! ( im started to shout loud, i can't tahan when a person say something never happen, and i never done it! please do not step on me!)
[my parents do not shout or argue with my granny before, this is why my granny like to "bully" them, but im not that easy for anyone who step on me, when i never did it, i will fight it back for myself, my aunt and my granny will non-stop shooting, if i want to fight back i should also non stop talking, do not bother they heard anot, but do not give a chance for them to shoot you if you din't do anything wrong]
she: but now i caan't get in. why do you all want to do this on me .....bla bla
(im not giving a chance for her to bla)
me: i never change the lock that you said now! please look carefully! it is the old old lock, how many years you all used it to lock the door you don't know! now you said it was new! hey ! look and find the key probably!!! i am the one who lock it, it is nothing to do with my mom, why are you want to say something like that?! i never do that on you! ( i am getting angry and angry, the first time i experince when people are scolding, blood presure will went up and i felt dizzy)
my chinese new year for that year is bad enough
she never have a chance to speack and hang up my called during im talking!
after a few minutes, i called back,
me: hello, did you found the key!
(my aunt was with her!!! OMG, you can't help your mom to see where is the key and don't you live in that house for thousand years! you don't know the lock is old one! when your mom called and scold you don't stop her ? you cant find it yourself instead of calling here and scold my parents!?)
[#@#$#%^&^@$@#%*^$%&^ WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!... now you found the key and said nothing happen!!!!!!!!!]
me: did i change anything on your house now!? why just now scold me like that, why don't you check it probably before you call!!!!!!!!
granny: then, what you want me to do! want to apologize to you? you want me to banddown?
me: but why you scold me badly just now!!!
(if i was in KL, i am really want to heard the apologize lo, but too bad, i am not there and i have no power to ask for anything!)
i was crying when calling, the tears is droping, i was standing bside my dad table , if not i will difenetly fainted.. i feel it. my parents was watching at me . I din't pass the line to them, if i did, they will kena again.i was hang up the phone. this is the first time i argue with granny. i totally boom with her, after that i never talk with her..
by the way, she never find us after she was move out. during festival, they will not call us will not meet us and everything. i don't mind this anyway.
there are still alot of things happen. not only this, this few years, when my dad came back from China, we will go to her house, we go there as a guest.. sit down laugh talk ( nonsence) pretending..blabla bla...
if wanted to talk about big family things, it will become a drama story line! you might not believe this will really happen in the real life.
one or two months before this, there are still an arguement, granny called to china scold my dad, my innocent dad....
alright back to the story a few days ago, after my mom talk to my uncle, she told my dad about granny, then my dad called and ask what happen, then we all went to see her .
when i saw her open the door, i feel bad, she was weak, can walk but slowly, i can feel she is older than before. kind of pity..cham......
wednesday when i back home from college, my dad told me she want to follow us back to perak. and tomorrow will stay over night in my house. oh my god! <-- thursday she came to my house, after she came she ask us why don't back to the old house and talk letters? and my mom said we have no key, yes she change the lock. then she tell my mom, i was the one who told her, my mom taken the lock so she change the key. omg!!! i cant remember did i told her my mom talk the lock. but i never said that, in my memory this is not happen!!!!!!!! arggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh if even u change the lock and you want use to take letter , why don't you give us the key!!! you know you had change and you know you never give us, then why asking us why we din't take the letters?! OMG...... i cant tahan...
we are back to perak and tanjung tualang will have a pasar malam, we bough alot of food,^^ when she bough a pao and fish ball, she just buy 2. never think of my brothers and sisters. when she eat, my brother asking her whats that, but she never give him 1.
last time, she will hide when she eating hotdog breads in the kitchen, well, i really can't understand why! why need to hide? the hotdog breads are cheap , we can affort to buy it, no need to hide when you are eating.
during Chinese new year there are 肉干 in my house。when chinese new year she won't allowed us to eat, but after few months, the food was exprired, she will ask the mate to cook for us...
i cant undertsand, im trying to forgive her,
when i saw her that day in her house, pity ...but yesterday, and what was happen pass few days, i was dissapointed, she is still the same. nothing for me to forget what had happen before. it is too hard. i would really want to ask her, did she recognise my dad as her son? did she recognise us as grand children?
well, my dad came back often this year, and this time, he din't tell us earlier, and thats why i help him book an airticket on thursday (for me its consider late)..lol...
my brother and sisters, mom are happy when he is back,.. me too ^^
tomorrow i have 2 tests, and class from 8-2pm, pack!!! i don't like to have tests when my dad is at home, i don't know why, but i cant change anything.. T.T this few days, i cant concentrade on my study, im not thinking about others thing either, just want to walk around in my house, online for movies, dramas,fanfic. listen to music, but not studying.kind of weird, but i still need to prepare for test! well, i don't know whether im well prepare, i just looking at the notes, and texts, write something on paper , then continue online..listen music, watch drama... oh my god~~~ how dare im doing this!!!!!
i really don't know what im doing right now, i want to free myself, ( i always said this lol)
yes, im a lazy warm !! hahahahahaha
this coming friday, i think i am going back to my hometown again T.T ..
daddy said want to settle rabble estate and rental thingy >.<" i like to go back actually, but this time round, i have no mood to travel outstation. I know there are alots of works are waiting for me. anyway, i must think a possitive way! i go back to hometown , then i can eat whatever i want to! hahaha... yesterday i was worrying after came back from KLIA (omg, i found that, i always going to KLIA =.= i can't remember i went there how many times this year =.=) after i came back, i was looking at my notes and so on, but i cant understand, so i go youtube for videos, i saw a video of jaejoong and micky, both of them went to fuji tv anniversary celebration (if im not mistaken) they sing their new song" color, melody and harmony" this is not the first time i listen to this song, but the video i watched yesterday was different, at the end of the song, jae was droping his tears(among the members, he is not always droping tears), i don't believe that is sweating but tears!!!! a big drop!!! i was stuck for a moment, why is this boy cry in a such good environment, he is trying to hide from the camera, but well, the tears is too big for me to see it! end up i come out with a conclusion, i know he is stress recently, so what am i! i should't complaint so much, he is do more and more than what i imagine! so, ANGELYNA ( slap myself) wake up** concentrade on your study! jae joong oppa is much more stress than you ! so what are you and who are you! from that moment, i was awake! see, this is what they meant to me! always remind me, i am just facing a little tiny problem compare with them. he can still stand on the stage and sing, to give the most perfect performance, so why not me. i am just facing myself and my family.
The picture of FUJI TV ANNIVERSARY CELEBRATION BACKSTAGE
JAE JAE, I KNOW U ARE CRYING
**Always Keep The Faith**
the song color, melody and harmony also the theme song for HELLO KITTY 35th ANNIVERSARRY SONG
**Always Keep The Faith**
pic credit :soompi
the letter head for the court
The Members Of TVXQ "Feel Distressed Because Of This Lawsuit"
*TVXQ's YoungWoong Jaejoong, Xiah Junsu and Micky Yoochun have stated they are "Upset and distressed because of this trial."
Sejong, who is representing TVXQ, stated to the media after the first hearing finished at 11:40 am, "The three members are feeling upset and distressed," and "We hope this lawsuit ends well."The two sides of the three members and SM Entertainment stated their views on the *on the 21st at 10:20 am, when the hearing began.The three members' side asked for the suspension of their exclusive contract and said there were problems when it came to their income division.SM Entertainment's side stated that they had already fixed the contract five times and that there were no problems with the income division.
The hearing ended after only an hour and 20 minutes.
*Another news:*Courts Urge For A 'Mutual Agreement' For The TVXQ Dispute*Popular group
TVXQ's three members asked for a suspension of their exclusive contract against SM Entertainment and the first hearing occurred on the 21st.
Seoul District Court's Judge Park Byungdae, after listening to both sides, said, "We think the best way to solve this dispute is for the two sides come to a mutual agreement, when we put the responsibility for biggest fan club in the world and*and the relationship with the other two members into consideration."The judge stated, "If both side would like to set a settlement date that will not be open to the public, that can be arranged," and urged both sides to come to a mutual agreement.The Courts agreed to both sides' wishes of ending this dispute early on and will come to a decision after examining all the related materials handed in on September 11th which is 3 weeks after this first hearing.The lawyer representing the three members said, "They do not want a disbandment of TVXQ," and "There are cases where teams stay together even if the members are in different agencies."Also, when the Courts asked whether they wanted a 'cancellation of their contract' or a 'revision of their contract', the lawyer replied, "It depends on how competent SM Entertainment will be to support TVXQ's transition from an idol group to a more mature artist group," and "The opportunities are endless."SM Entertainment's lawyer said, "Although the three members who filed this lawsuit are not having their right violated, the agency is losing a lot of money due to this trial so we wish for it to end quickly and for TVXQ to start their activities again," and "The only reason SME asked the three members to not participate in the Chinese cosmetic company branch was because the agency feared that TVXQ's image might be damaged in some way; the agency had no other intentions."The Courts said, "As long as this lawsuit has been filed, please refrain from talking about or attack the other side through the media."TVXQ's three out of five members, Xiah Junsu (Kim Junsu), YoungWoong Jaejoong, (Kim Jaejoong) and Micky Yoochun (Park Yoochun), stated that "Our 13 year exclusive contract can basically be seen as a life contract, and we did not receive proper treatment from SME in many aspects such as income division," and filed their lawsuit on July 31st.
another one:SME Complains About The Preservation Of Evidence Request
SM Entertainment filed an appeal regarding the preservation of evidence request the three members of TVXQ filed recently.SME's side filed for their appeal at the first hearing that began on the 21st at 10:20am.SME's side stated, "Some of the receipts and other documentation used to calculate TVXQ's income are the company's secret information. Therefore, it could be fatal to SME if these forms *of documentation were revealed to the media."The Courts explained a 'In Camera' system that they use which will invalidate SME's claims. The 'In Camera' system is a system in which only a few select people are able to see the important files or the business' secrets in an enclosed area.This appeal makes people question how accurately the Courts will be able to calculate the actual income of TVXQ.
================Shinwa- minwoo's interview =================
translated interview credit soompi
Lee Min-Woo said, "(TVXQ) are excellent juniors that I recognise. A few months ago, they even had a chat with me about problems in life... I could tell that the members have very deep feelings for the group. At the back stage, they would hold each others' hands and pray, say good luck; the way they cheer each other on is very similar to us. (T/N: He meant Shinhwa) Because they are a group which *has very good team spirit, I believe in TVXQ.""My dear younger brothers, TVXQ does not just belong to TVXQ. Don't think too much and over-complicate things, just keep thinking about your fans who have spent precious times with you and who have always protected you. I hope that all of you can steadfastly protect the proud name of TVXQ. You definitely can't disband, Hyung (T/N: Older brother) is counting on you. After the current issue is *is resolved, the 11 of us should go out and have fun."
**finally i saw minwoo sun bae nim 's words!!! , thanks to his words during a magazine interview yesterday! appreciate it! **thanks to cassiopeia !
**Always Keep The Faith**
Or should i said it is world wide cassiopeia power ?
below is the 2nd advertisiment which released on today's korean newspaper in the front page! and online news! As i had mention in previous post, the korean cassiopeia are risingfund and do the advertisment on newspaper and online news. Today, the advertisment start by asking questions.
the outdoor/offline petition forms
the offline petition done in Korea outdoor
**Always Keep The Faith**
小在。。我喜欢你的经典笑声：“阿～哈 哈 哈 哈～～”
秀秀， 这次你真的是主哦！！ 全部人都在处处讨好你。。
one of the video, junsu is the winner of the day, so he can sleep on bed, the other bed he need to chose 1 of the member to sleep, so the others members are thinking the way to make junsu happy in order to get the bed, otherwise, 1 have to sleep on sofa, 1 sleep on chair, and 1 sleep at the balcony =.=
changmin is saying a lot of unreasonable things to make junsu happy, thier looks is no image at all.. the way they act is totally not the one infront of camera last time. expecially changmin, he is naughty!~~~and, they are wearing pyjamas =.=.....
when jaejoong lose and have to sleep at the balcony, he get mad, and bully junsu, tickle him... but junsu shout changmin loud, changmin come to rescue junsu...
*Well, to all my well known friends, who know me, who i care of, to those i care, please do keep yourself healthy, and happy always, i do not want anything happen on people who i care, i will not take it easy.
Korean Cassiopeia Power Part II
here i want to post a video regarding TVXQ lawsuit inccident with CASSIOPEIA's reaction- continue by the previous post.
this is an entertainment news , and the channel is famous in Korea, MNET WIDE NEWS
Korean cassieopeia are just too powerful, people says, there is nothing Korean Cassiopeia can't do it!, they can do whatever they want and they wish to!!!! and here are the advertisment!
Korean Cassiopeia was doing a fundraising . The funds are using on the advertisment !
they are publishing the advertisment about TVXQ, and stated cassioepeia are always there!
as what know, they will do this a few times, and will publish online and newspaper!
yes, cassiopeia is just too powerful!
(1st ads publish on 15th August 2009)